A dream about True Mother

I had my very first dream with True Mother. She gave a gift to Andrea and I, but I cannot remember the gift. I do not remember her entourage; they were very much not there.

She was her age but using her body like a young person would do. For example, she jumped up at some point to sit on the ledge of a shelf so that she could talk to me.

I remember looking for something to sit on like a chair, I don’t remember if I did.

What I understood from her small talk to me was that it was hard for her to have a true friend, someone who can stick. She has had but they don’t stay for long because they have other commitments.

Looks like she was looking for someone who would stay with her always who would not have any other focus. She was not sad, or complaining, she was simply reporting.

April 2nd, 2018

My life as a Unificationist… A small discovery

Today I was reading Nancy Hanna testimony in the book “40-years in America” and an idea came to me. My life in the Unification Movement did not follow the normal “Formula course” taught by our True Parents. I was in a business mission from day 1 of moving into the center in Paris and stay in a business mission until April 15, 2009, except for 9 months in 1974.

We rarely fasted, rarely did conditions that would impair our ability to work long hours for the business at hand. We work hard, but we were well fed, well cared for in many ways.

I have many times compared my life as a Unificationist to many others who went a quite different course and I wondered why mine was different.

I have always been healthy, but I was a tiny child. My mother was a mid-wife and took care of me and my sister very well. I think my physical body was more fragile than possibly the norm, especially when I was very young. I remember receiving special medical treatment because I was so small for no specific reason.

I think God chose my mission very well. If I had followed the formula course, I may not have survived it. God knew my abilities, my strength of character, and he gave me a job, that I could do. Working hard, well fed, medical care anytime I needed. I never thought like that before, but I think that might be the reason for my life in our movement.

Because of the business mission, I attended only a couple of Divine Principle workshop and that was it. My spiritual life was not nourished as much as some other members. I remember very well, how eager we all were when visited by an elder and spoken to about God, True Parents, and the Divine Principle. But that was so rare.

God knew I could handle that. My commitment to God was strong enough to handle the fasting of spiritual food. That is why I got the job I did as a Unificationist. At least that is one explanation.

Special Note: In April of 2009 I had cancer and required a lot of treatments. I could not work anymore and earned a living. That is when I decided that I was done with business missions. No more! I stop reading books for entertainment only. Every book I read from then on to today are connected to feed my spiritual life for the purpose of guiding humankind to God and True Parents. It is during that time, summer 2009 that the Online Matching System (OMS) was born. The following year, I connected with the Blessing Family Ministry (BFM) and have been working with them since.

With Love and gratitude, always,

Anne-Marie

June 7, 2020

Do you believe in God? (1)

Which one? There are many Gods in this world. I cannot say for sure that I believe in the God of the person who is asking the question, unless, this person, first, tells me who God is, for him or her.

Yes, I believe that I am a created being and therefore there is a creator, someone who gave life to humanity on the onset. I also believe that the earth and the whole universe was created by a being who was capable of planning and executing a very complex creation.

Why do I believe?

I was born that way. I believe before I was conceived. I have the feeling that my ancestry, for many generations, were strong believers in a Christian God, therefore the whole spiritual atmosphere surrounded me from the start.

I never wavered in my belief in God, but I did modify it as I grew. My own thoughts, reflections, spiritual life gave me a different understanding of who God is, his motivation for creating, and his way of thinking and loving. So, the God that I believe in today is not the God that I was born to know. So, if I was asked by someone from my Parents generation who believed the way they did if I believed in God, I will have to say, no, I do not.

So far, the best definition of God that I have come across is this one:

God, the Creator of all things under the sun, is the true parent of all humanity. He is not a parent in the parochial sense, existing only for a certain religion, a certain race, or the residents of a certain region. You may call Him by any name, be it Jehovah, Allah, or any other. What is important is that He certainly exists, lives as the true parent of all people, and is carrying on the great work of Creation. He governs everything in the universe, and He carries out His providence through history in accordance with the principles and laws of nature that He set up at the beginning of time. 

[Rev. Sun Myung Moon, April 10, 2006, Peace Message # 3]

Condition of the Heart: Example 1

Example 1:
When one feels anger and frustration because the head of states is making decisions that are against one’s own life principles…

How should one react?
Option 1: Vent the frustration on Facebook, by calling him/her “names” and posting derogatory messages that will vilify the individual.  Find a photograph with an attached statement that may or may not relate to the picture and could also be a lie.  It may feel good for a few minutes but it won’t last.

Option 2: If, able to, research the background of the decision made.  The pros and cons of the decisions.  Research who participated in making the decisions.  Research possible statistics of similar decisions made in the past by prior head of states, either from one’s country or others.  Refrain from posting anything that will inflame in oneself or others the negative feeling toward the head of states, because it will only multiply anger and frustration in oneself and others without accomplishing anything productive.

Option 3: If research as mentioned in option 2 cannot be done, one will still refrain from spreading negativity and frustration.  Try to express one’s own point of view, in a way, that will make others think and be curious about why one may not approve of the decision made.

Option 4: Frustration and anger may push someone to write on Facebook what one believes should have been a better decision and why.  It should be done with respect towards all individuals concern, and statistics if available should be presented.  The argument will have supportive documents that may make other people think and review the decision made.

What is the best answer?
Option 2, 3 and 4 are acceptable answers depending on abilities and knowledge of the subject at end.  Option 1 is not a good option.  It does not stimulate goodness in others, it is spreading possible false statements. It is stimulating confrontation instead of cooperation.

                                                          _____________________

A condition of heart is an action that will stimulate and uplift our ability to love humanity and be a positive influence in helping each other to become the citizens of a stable, reliable, confident, supportive, caring, forgiving, intellectually stimulating, serving, giving, and kind cosmic world.

                                                          _____________________

The small video below is from Viktor Frankl, an Austrian neurologist and psychiatrist as well as a Holocaust survivor.
https://www.ted.com/talks/viktor_frankl_youth_in_search_of_meaning

He wrote a book worth reading, Viktor E. Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning.

Forgiveness is a very necessary but difficult thing to do.

I am responding to someone who has difficulties with the memory of her mother.

I am very sorry that you may not have had the loving, caring, and embracing mother that you should have had. Going to the funeral or not is not necessarily important.  What is most important is for you to get rid of the feeling inside your heart about your mother.  Not because it is important for your mother, but it is important for you.  A lot of people hurt others, voluntarily or involuntarily, and it is very hard for the person on the receiving end to go beyond that hurt but it is necessary for the well-being (physical and spiritual) of that individual and the well-being of everyone around as well and the children if you have any.

A person that my late husband had great regard for was Viktor Frankl.  He was an Austrian neurologist and psychiatrist as well as a Holocaust survivor.  Please research this individual and read his book.  You may also watch this short TED talk, the English is not really good but good enough to understand what he has to say.
https://www.ted.com/talks/viktor_frankl_youth_in_search_of_meaning

If you cannot go to your mother’s funeral because it will hurt you in a way that will endanger your stable self then don’t go, what is important is your own mental and emotional stability because if you are not stable then others will suffer too.  It is not selfish to take care of oneself, it is necessary for the sake of others.

Mother Theresa said to her sisters that they had to take care of themselves if they wanted to take care of others (they had to sleep and they had to eat).

I hope that what I am telling you will help.  Be the best that you can be regardless of the shortcoming of your mother and others.
Sincerely,
Anne-Marie

Who am I?

I am no one special.
I am an ordinary person born in 1951 to ordinary people in a country who provided good welfare to it citizens.  I was loved by my parents.  Their income was not good enough for us to go on vacation once a year but it was good enough for gifts under the Xmas tree every year and for every birthday.  I cannot complain.

At the age of 15, I dreamed of a peaceful world, not because my country was at war, but because others were.  By 19 I was already a registered nurse and working.  By 21, I left the world I had known and the people I loved, behind, and entered the new and uncharted waters of spiritual war.

2011 will see my 39th spiritual birthday, my 32nd wedding anniversary, and the 21st anniversary of my motherhood.

I am no one special. I do not comprehend politics very well, and do not understand economists.  I do not resent people who make a lot of money but resent calls for voluntarism when I perceived so much selfishness and shortsightedness of the leaders of our societies.

I believe that ignorance breed fear, and fear breed war.  Ignorance does not affect only uneducated individuals.  Ignorance is a disease that affects all of us.  We judge and make decisions from what we know and forget that we know very little.

New Year's Resolution!

I wish to be efficient in what I do.

This has been my New Year's resolution for many years. So, I guess it will be so again this year. As the years passed, I feel the urgency to do well, to be efficient. I have possibly another thirty years in front of me, or may be much less.

I am not interested to be victorious for my own self; I am interested to be victorious because it will make a positive impact on our world. I am sixty years old. I do not work eighteen hours a day like I used to. My work habits have switched from external to internal. I think, pray, reflect, lead, advise, counsel, smile, and love more.  That is what older people should do, isn't it?

My credentials are simple.

I am sixty years old
A wife for 32 years
A mother for 21 years

So, I hope that this coming year I will be more efficient at what I do, so that in my own way I will have a positive impact on our world one year at a time.